Ah, for all my good intentions, I’m not that great at keeping this up. Meh.
I just re-read my last post – from July 16, about working as an RN again, and the funny thing is, although I’ve worked 340 hours and almost 3 months, I still feel the same! Who was crazy enough to give me that title RN? :-) I’m still loving it, and there is lots of learning still, finding my way ….meeting up with new skills/new challenges etc. But the best part is I work with amazing colleagues who are ALWAYS willing to answer my questions and help me figure out what I’m doing. I’m getting more and more comfortable with the routines, with figuring out who’s on call, paging doctors, being assertive in asking for what I want for my patients, and making decisions on my own without second guessing myself or confirming with another RN. It’s great. I’m getting enough hours, and even have to ignore phone calls from Staffing if I am tired, or worked enough. It feels like I’m doing more nights, but that’s okay, I like the pace. A few more months, and I will think about applying to Maternity!
So much has happened since my last post …a Whistler holiday, going back to school for Martin and the kids, Behind the Screen presentations, a trip to Winnipeg, Alanna’s 19th birthday (!!!), our 20th wedding anniversary …….
For now, I want to just focus on our wedding anniversary. 20 years is special. Two decades of being married!! We’ve gone through a lot, ups and downs, lots of health issues, grief, joy ….just like every other couple. We’re raising 4 blessings from our Lord …and one of these blessings – our 19 year old daughter, made this anniversary very special for us in 2 ways. First, we were in Winnipeg and came back the day before our anniversary. While we were in Winnipeg, Alanna asked us to keep Thursday free. :-) Cool? Okay, we’ll do that. But FIRST, on our actual anniversary, she left a very special gift on our bed for us. Those of you who know Alanna know that she is gifted linguistically and has a passion for literacy, poems etc. She writes extremely well. This poem was written for us:
I see the show of affection a lot, you know. Even if isn’t blatant. I can see their love for each other rise up in the air like dust, and settle firmly between them.
It’s in the way he listens ~ patiently hearing every emotion laced through the words, strong and vibrant and binding.
It’s in the way she asks how he’s doing – and you know she really wants to know ~ the good, the bad and the ugly; all the messes he’s tried to contain.
It’s in the way he makes her laugh ~ and how his eyes light up when he knows he’s succeeded in brightening a part of her day
It’s in the way she holds her his hand ~ how her slightest touch will send currents of strength and reassurance flooding in
It’s in the way he serves ~ going above and beyond what is expected, just to help her out, just to ease her burden
It’s in the hope that she gives ~ standing as the optimistic one for the both of them, daring to dream when he no longer can
She is his lifeline. He is her solid ground. They are a unit, each unable to breathe without the other.
And perhaps, one day, they will need to learn how; how to stand alone, without their heartbeat.
But for now, they are a vision. Glorious, rare, true.
A love traced with passion, scars, tenderness, truth.
A love that has gained durability over the years.
They are a forever deal. They have made the vows they spoke come to life in front of my very eyes.
They are what I aspire to achieve.
When I am asked “what do you think is true love” my answer is simple.
I simply point to them. My parents.
What can I say? She’s special. :-)
And then she organized a surprise anniversary get together with our families and close friends – to acknowledge our 20th wedding anniversary. And yes, she managed to surprise us. And took care of it all with the help of a few people. :-)
We are blessed. So so blessed. Thank you Father God for 20 years together, for 4 amazing children and every other blessing we have!!!